No Heart

I have no heart. 
I feel no love. 
I feel no pain. 
My tears are meaningless, 
Hypocrites to their purpose. 
My smiles express false sentiment, 
Facial expressions to hide the void. 

You have suffocated my heart. 
Not once. 
Not twice. 
So many times… 
Until it fled, trembling and bleeding, 
To depths 
Where I cannot reach 
To darkness 
Where I cannot see the trail of blood 
To silence 
Where I cannot hear its dying gasps. 

I am left here on a battlefield 
- bloodless - 
With a war waging around me 
Standing motionless 
Dispassionate to the blades burying deep 
Ravenously searching for their sheath – 
My heart. 

And I laugh mirthlessly; 
I have no heart. 
And think of that little girl 
Who sat crying, 
Between her cupboard and the wall, 
Gasping for air 
As her heart was suffocating 


Christina De Silva 
10 February 2009